Fine art compositions of pet portraits. Pets are put in costume set against detailed backgrounds.
Pillow portraits are a unique addition to any home and sure to be a conversation piece. Each pillow is hand painted in a caricature style. This is an excellent gift for weddings and birthdays.
Pop Culture Nesting Dolls
These pop culture nesting dolls are a sensation! I only take a limited number of commissions each year, so stay posted for any updates regarding new sets or to fill the requests for custom work.
A closer look at my work in its natural habitat.
Custom Art for Weddings
Custom artwork for weddings is the perfect way to start any couple's art collection and create a one of a kind work of art to grow over time.
Standard Pet Portraits
This portrait style is a straightforward style to showcase the pet.
The (Dead Mothers) Club Documentary
The Filming and Process.
When the filming began, I felt excitement for the chance to talk about my mother. At the start, I was over a decade from my initial loss and my mother was becoming a shadowy figure in my memory. I was so far removed from who I was when I lost my mom at 21, it felt good to reconnect with her as an adult and as an expectant mother. The research portion of the film required me to dig through dusty boxes for old home movies, peel through photo albums, and revisit scrapbooks.
The timing of the film in my life was impeccable. I was moving into a new stage of grief as I was expecting the arrival of my daughter and did not have my mother to share in the process. As with many first time mothers there are so many doubts and fears. We read books, follow blogs, and Google search becomes a daily ritual. I started to believe that my mother would have answers to all the questions. Now that I am a mother of a toddler, I know you live in the moment and the first year is purely survival. You operate in two-week cycles, quickly forgetting what it’s like to live with a 2 month old. I’m pretty sure that’s God’s doing or else we would never reproduce again. I was afraid and just wanted my mom. Once I identified that I was in a new grief phase, I prepared myself for it and allowed myself to cry.
Grief never goes away, it’s cyclical. I compare my personal experience of surviving my mother’s suicide to how an earthquake is measured. There is the epicenter where all the buildings crumble and then there are multiple rings of shockwaves. Each year past her death, I felt like I moved away from the epicenter, but always felt the shockwaves. I feel like I even encountered a delayed tsunami five years later.
The Dead Mothers Club is a mile marker in my recovery process. I have peace now that I am a mother to a daughter that needs me. We are making our own memories as a family. I am out of the shockwave rings and more importantly, I’m removed from the dark shadow that my mother’s suicide cast over my life and can remember how she mothered me. I nurture my daughter as she did me, and my mother is there. I get to relive my childhood through my daughter’s eyes, and my mother is there.
I am thankful for Katie Green and Carlye Rubin to have the vision and dedication to The Dead Mother’s Club.
The Screening at HBO in New York.
I was a nervous wreck thinking about the screening at HBO. I think the nature of the film made me have so many complex emotions. I had so many worries about sharing such a personal life experience with the world. I worried how my family would feel and react. I just worried. I never expected it would wind up going to the top and I was about to experience the free fall as the days inched closer to the world premiere.
I kept focusing on how I felt, standing in the brightly lit aisles of the mega bookstore between the self help and grief section, just praying to find a book written by someone without a Ph.D. about how they felt about their mother’s suicide. I wanted reassurance that life would go on, that it was possible to experience joy, and that I would be ok. This was my mantra as I prepared myself for the screening. I held tightly to the hope that my story could reach one person that was suffering from losing a loved one to suicide or help someone seek help for a feeling of mental imbalance.
When I walked into HBO, there was a line of posters (my artwork) and rows of cameras and press. I had no idea that this would happen. I wanted to run as fast as I could. Instead, I took a deep breath and kept one foot in front of the other. I was immediately pulled in for a photo with Rosie O ‘Donnell and Sheila Nevins. As we panned our focus from one camera to the other, I turned to see Leticia and Jordyn (the other women in the film) and felt an immediate connection. When we made eye contact, I knew we were experiencing this together and I immediately felt support. The reception was just as tense and I lingered in hallways and on the outskirts.
When the lights flickered, we all entered the theater. Rosie O’Donnell welcomed the crowd and provided some much needed comedic relief. After viewing the film for a second time, I felt a great sense of peace. The same crowd that exited the theater had red eyes and were greeting me with warmth and thanking me for sharing my story. They told us we were brave for sharing our experience and we would touch so many people. Their words reconnected with my mantra and I was able to feel peace and let go of any worry.
The Club Family.
I met everyone at a restaurant after the screening and sat down to a table with Jordyn and Leticia. This was technically our first time to get to know each other, but had an immediate connection as if we’ve known and loved each other for years. We felt like sisters. Rosie O’Donnell’s words gave the film its name, “The dead mother thing? It’s like a club. You’re initiated. You get a tattoo. It’s not going away.”
The Dead Mothers Club brought healing and gave me a new sense of family. A feeling of understanding on the deepest level, sisters.
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