“You can’t really know where you’re going until you know where you have been.”
new year, new possibilities
I recently saw a tweet that said, “January me wouldn’t believe the life I’ve lived this year.” After a year dedicated to healing and focusing my attention, I registered for Kristen Ley’s mentoring session to develop and curate a pattern collection in January 2023. Working as a sole creator for many years, it felt imperative to invest in my creative career to narrow my focus and utilize the accountability that came with the mentorship. Kristen is one of the most brilliant creatives I know and has a gift for problem-solving and solutions. It was also important as a friend that Kristen would have an understanding of my work over the past few years and be straightforward. I was ready to advance, utilize new methods, and strategies. The healing work helped me see how long I had operated from a wounded source.
Groundwork
Painting is a changing process that is rooted in trial and error. I am maximizing the right brain when I am in a flow state. The left brain is necessary for correction during the process. Still, letting it become a critic instead of the editor is so easy. The critic will start feeding self-doubt that sabotages the joy that inspired the beginning. The editor knows to walk away to come back with fresh eyes, adjust colors, and let you know when a painting has come to completion. We have to be careful about the stories we tell ourselves about ourselves. A narrative is powerful with the ability to be soul-crushing or life-giving.
When I shifted my focus to building a new body of work, it felt like something that needed care and protection. Creating an environment to channel intrinsic motivation was part of this plan, and this prep work revealed I needed a break from Instagram. The mounting frustration with the influx of ads from user-generated content and the difficulty of the algorithm allowing your posts to be seen made me realize I needed to change how I operate. This signaled that the app will likely roll out subscription-based options by causing an extended period of frustration to increase the appeal of a premium option with more control and fewer ads.
“I’ve noticed that when I’m facing a difficult decision, I often start polling people. That polling habit has become my indicator light that I need less input and more silence and stillness so I can hear myself. Of course I seek counsel from a few people in my life, but when I can’t connect with what I’m thinking or feeling - that’s when I get into dangerous default territory (either standing too far back and not deciding, or letting others decide for me).”
The most significant push for me to take an extended break was realizing how much energy I put into valuing engagement, likes, and feedback analytics over the past 7 years. Social media has a lot of pitfalls. Comparison traps when you see someone else doing something similar or perceived as better, leading you to immediately scrap it. Working on something and not sharing about it became a thrill after oversharing out of habit. Polling reactions/opinions and being chronically online was replaced with direct contact through texts to friends and family. It was apparent early on that this new shift was meaningful. Someone my age has seen technology rapidly change. It feels uneasy to even be on any platform over a decade.
Prepwork
The prep work began in January, with the mentoring session scheduled to start on February 1. The first task was to create a scope of work by saving images to Dropbox. This initially felt daunting, and Kristen suggested automating screenshots to streamline the process. My mindset at the time was how scattered my work felt. It was a combination of operating in perpetual motion and object permanence from concepts, sketches, and paintings tucked away for years. Common threads and patterns appeared. It felt like having a personal retrospective, and I was proud of how much work I have done through the years. To go from “Oh, I’m an artist that does a little bit of everything, kind of all over the place” to this pride knowing I’ve had a spontaneous career path led by humor, bold color palettes, a love for antiques, tchotchkes, and pop culture.
Kristen requested a portfolio review to sort existing work into collections and suggested new ways to organize my files. I have continuously operated within a theme or group in my career but felt a need to move on if it needed to be better received or if I lost interest. Surface pattern design has always been something I wanted to learn more about, and the process was a lightbulb moment. By taking an existing painting, I could define a hero image and assign supporting design elements into patterns, multiplying its potential.
Action Plan
With proximity to Spring, I decided to develop a pattern collection under the guidance of Kristen. It felt like a design boot camp that provided the structure and accountability I sought. She created a timeline with checkpoints and deadlines to have product samples in my hands before launching a collection on my website and social media.
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Run Rabbit Run
The project supported by the mentorship was to create a Spring Collection. If you know me, you know I am a Christmas girlie, and maybe I spend my allowance for holiday cheer all in one place. I enjoy many things about Spring and Easter, but we don’t usually decorate the house. I brainstormed about themes, and the bunny rabbit was at the top.
During moments of grief, I’ve encountered Messengers of Hope. Butterflies and moths are the most common. I don’t mean I see one through a window. It will be an interaction that’s impossible to ignore. Like when a dragonfly interacted with me on my way to the car. It flew in, landed on the dash, and hitched a ride. On the 20-year mark of my Mom’s passing, I encountered a wild French Hare as dusk began to reveal the Strawberry Supermoon in the sky. Because I tend to look for magic, I find it in symbolic meaning.
Sprigs of French lavender, the butterfly, and the symbolism of the hare infused a connection with the process that didn’t surface in my earliest attempts. The goal became creating a full illustration, extracting supporting design elements, and remaining within a limited color palette.
Run Rabbit Run
From here, my ideas began multiplying like rabbits. It has always been a dream of mine to see my work on products like textiles, wallpaper, and linens. I tested out a few print on demands options, but would ultimately love to move into licensing my illustration and working with agencies. If you know someone, give me a shout!
